I think, once Anakin murdered the children, there was no going back for him any time in the immediate future. A slow burn, where he was coddled for awhile, then eventually return? Yes! But I'm not sure Obi-Wan or Yoda would have been capable of that, it was too large a transgression to set aside, not when it meant ignoring the things Anakin would be doing in the meantime.
If they were isolated from the bigger galaxy, maybe. But they're not capable of ignoring that he murdered those children and, while they would have accepted him back, had he turned, Obi-Wan certainly was trying during their duel to get Anakin to back down, Anakin couldn't admit that it was wrong.
And I think that's why he can't admit he wants to die, either. To admit that would mean looking at why he wanted to die--not just the loss of everyone and everything he loved, but that it was from his own actions and it was his own fault. If he admits that he has nothing, then the dark side wasn't worth it, betraying the Jedi wasn't worth it, killing the children wasn't worth it, trying to save Padme by forcing her to live wasn't worth it. And he can't admit that, it's too big, it's too much. He can't even face smaller things, how could he face all that?
But also I think there's just a lot of hate and rage in him that keeps him wanting to lash out at anything that's within range. He wants to die, but he also wants to kill everything. He's the most special ever, nothing can kill him. He's the angriest ever, the people around him deserve what he dishes out. He just... can't let go, no matter how much it hurts him to keep suffering like this.
At least that's how I see him and how I think this series wrote him!
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Date: 2018-12-28 09:34 pm (UTC)If they were isolated from the bigger galaxy, maybe. But they're not capable of ignoring that he murdered those children and, while they would have accepted him back, had he turned, Obi-Wan certainly was trying during their duel to get Anakin to back down, Anakin couldn't admit that it was wrong.
And I think that's why he can't admit he wants to die, either. To admit that would mean looking at why he wanted to die--not just the loss of everyone and everything he loved, but that it was from his own actions and it was his own fault. If he admits that he has nothing, then the dark side wasn't worth it, betraying the Jedi wasn't worth it, killing the children wasn't worth it, trying to save Padme by forcing her to live wasn't worth it. And he can't admit that, it's too big, it's too much. He can't even face smaller things, how could he face all that?
But also I think there's just a lot of hate and rage in him that keeps him wanting to lash out at anything that's within range. He wants to die, but he also wants to kill everything. He's the most special ever, nothing can kill him. He's the angriest ever, the people around him deserve what he dishes out. He just... can't let go, no matter how much it hurts him to keep suffering like this.
At least that's how I see him and how I think this series wrote him!