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gffaღ - I wish I felt more comfortable talking about Steven Universe, because the worldbuilding on that show is phenomenal, but I binged the early seasons so long ago and wasn't really paying attention to the detail, that I feel like anything substantive (that others haven't covered better) would get lost in the crowd.
Add in that most of my thoughts/feelings tend to be speculative rather than poring over what we've just been given (which is not my preferred area of "making the time and focus to write these things down in words" meta) and it just sort of doesn't quite coalesce in my mind. Hence whybell should put together an SU post about last night's episode, so I can crib off her work instead. ^_~
(I just have So. Many. Feelings. about Pink Diamond!)
ღ - Podcast rec for the day: Dr. Death over on Wondery. It's about the surgeon who was so bad that he maimed 30+ patients for life and ultimately faced criminal charges for how bad he was. It's a little more sensationalist than I'd prefer (mostly in the presentation, rather than in the incredible research that's gone into the podcast, like, yes, having a folksy theme song is engaging, but is it really the tone you want to set?) but it's gripping and an incredibly well told story, one that's only partly about the man himself and is just as much about how the medical field got to where it is.
ღ - Comics meta! As always, don't hold me to my initial reactions on this issue, I'd probably be more favorable in a reread (though, I was warming up to it at this point), but I want to archive them as they were to show my journey with the comic, and that's the point of dusting off this DW!
Darth Vader: Dark Lord of the Sith #2:
–Darth Vader #2
I was a little underwhelmed by Vader #1, but I think I liked #2 much better. As hilarious as the OMG LOL ANAKIN YOU DRAMATIC ENTRANCE LITTLE SHIT aspect of Vader here is, as much as it’s possible that I’m supposed to be thinking that Vader is high on his own unlimited power or whatever (and there probably is an element of that here), what I really took away from this issue was:
VADER HAS A DEATH WISH STREAK A MILE WIDE
He’s not being efficient here whatsoever, he goes to the station and deliberately doesn’t use his access codes, he just walks right into the middle of blaster fire and barely bothers to shield himself, he mows through the clones and then throws away the lightsaber that he could have used, he could have used that kyber crystal to corrupt for his own blade, but instead he seeks out a Jedi specifically to fight, one who is good at fighting.
There’s obviously an element of “I have no limits.” in the sense of Vader being the Most Powerful Ever and he’s pretty high on that, but given that issue #1 did seem to understand Anakin/Vader’s desire to follow the Empire, I’m willing to give this the benefit of the doubt and say, hey, yeah, maybe it gets that Vader, on some level that maybe he knew about or maybe he didn’t, really, REALLY wanted someone to just Kill Him Already, but no one who was willing was ever strong enough to do it.
[originally posted here]
FOLLOW UP:
#after all he can’t suicide any other way #his fucking suit won’t let him #his fucking master won’t let him #it’s why he keeps going after LITERALLY ANYONE #WILL SOMEONE PLEASE GET A LUCKY SHOT OFF?? (via @themoosejthm)
Sidious would never let his pet monster die and there are times when Vader does still feel rage, but most of those ~19 years are just ONE LONG BLACK HOLE OF DEPRESSION because he is SO READY TO DIE, there’s nothing in this galaxy left for him but the cold, empty order that the Empire will bring, there’s not even any satisfaction in it, not without the people he was meant to share it with, and he just wants to die already, WHY IS NO ONE STRONG ENOUGH TO KILL HIM, surely at least one pissed off Separatist or Rebel exists out there who’s capable! Maybe a hidden Jedi can do it! BUT NO, NONE OF THEM ARE STRONG ENOUGH, HE HAS TO KEEP LIVING WITH THIS, no matter how much it weighs.
But he can’t do it himself, because the suit won’t let him, because the only way he can survive is if he keeps putting one foot in front of the other, because Sidious would probably find out if he tried and punish him further.
But this is a hill I will die on. Darth Vader: Black Hole of Depression Who Just Wishes Someone Would Kill Him Alread
[originally posted here]
Add in that most of my thoughts/feelings tend to be speculative rather than poring over what we've just been given (which is not my preferred area of "making the time and focus to write these things down in words" meta) and it just sort of doesn't quite coalesce in my mind. Hence why
bell should put together an SU post about last night's episode, so I can crib off her work instead. ^_~(I just have So. Many. Feelings. about Pink Diamond!)
ღ - Podcast rec for the day: Dr. Death over on Wondery. It's about the surgeon who was so bad that he maimed 30+ patients for life and ultimately faced criminal charges for how bad he was. It's a little more sensationalist than I'd prefer (mostly in the presentation, rather than in the incredible research that's gone into the podcast, like, yes, having a folksy theme song is engaging, but is it really the tone you want to set?) but it's gripping and an incredibly well told story, one that's only partly about the man himself and is just as much about how the medical field got to where it is.
ღ - Comics meta! As always, don't hold me to my initial reactions on this issue, I'd probably be more favorable in a reread (though, I was warming up to it at this point), but I want to archive them as they were to show my journey with the comic, and that's the point of dusting off this DW!
Darth Vader: Dark Lord of the Sith #2:
–Darth Vader #2
I was a little underwhelmed by Vader #1, but I think I liked #2 much better. As hilarious as the OMG LOL ANAKIN YOU DRAMATIC ENTRANCE LITTLE SHIT aspect of Vader here is, as much as it’s possible that I’m supposed to be thinking that Vader is high on his own unlimited power or whatever (and there probably is an element of that here), what I really took away from this issue was:
VADER HAS A DEATH WISH STREAK A MILE WIDE
He’s not being efficient here whatsoever, he goes to the station and deliberately doesn’t use his access codes, he just walks right into the middle of blaster fire and barely bothers to shield himself, he mows through the clones and then throws away the lightsaber that he could have used, he could have used that kyber crystal to corrupt for his own blade, but instead he seeks out a Jedi specifically to fight, one who is good at fighting.
There’s obviously an element of “I have no limits.” in the sense of Vader being the Most Powerful Ever and he’s pretty high on that, but given that issue #1 did seem to understand Anakin/Vader’s desire to follow the Empire, I’m willing to give this the benefit of the doubt and say, hey, yeah, maybe it gets that Vader, on some level that maybe he knew about or maybe he didn’t, really, REALLY wanted someone to just Kill Him Already, but no one who was willing was ever strong enough to do it.
[originally posted here]
FOLLOW UP:
#after all he can’t suicide any other way #his fucking suit won’t let him #his fucking master won’t let him #it’s why he keeps going after LITERALLY ANYONE #WILL SOMEONE PLEASE GET A LUCKY SHOT OFF?? (via @themoosejthm)
Sidious would never let his pet monster die and there are times when Vader does still feel rage, but most of those ~19 years are just ONE LONG BLACK HOLE OF DEPRESSION because he is SO READY TO DIE, there’s nothing in this galaxy left for him but the cold, empty order that the Empire will bring, there’s not even any satisfaction in it, not without the people he was meant to share it with, and he just wants to die already, WHY IS NO ONE STRONG ENOUGH TO KILL HIM, surely at least one pissed off Separatist or Rebel exists out there who’s capable! Maybe a hidden Jedi can do it! BUT NO, NONE OF THEM ARE STRONG ENOUGH, HE HAS TO KEEP LIVING WITH THIS, no matter how much it weighs.
But he can’t do it himself, because the suit won’t let him, because the only way he can survive is if he keeps putting one foot in front of the other, because Sidious would probably find out if he tried and punish him further.
But this is a hill I will die on. Darth Vader: Black Hole of Depression Who Just Wishes Someone Would Kill Him Alread
